I'm here because a good friend, who also started blogging suggested that me (a very loud, big mouthed person) start using this blog as a means of venting and expressing my feelings..whatever they may be about things going on in my life so as to prevent me from saying "stuff" with my big loud mouth out loud at school...so here I am... ready to blog away about my pathetic, really not all that bad life, which I usually make WAY more stressful than I need to!
My current thoughts on stuff stressing me out right now in my life:
SCHOOL-
AHHHHH!!! Ahahah OMG where to begin?
Well I guess I'll start with the fact that as of friday I was failing 3 classes now I'm only failing 2 but still thats bad! First off I've never been a bad student or a slacker EVER in school but as a senior I have caught senioritis bad and suddenly have started slacking for the first time ever...and am discovering the repercussions....also second- I'M A SENIOR! Which means I need to start passing or at least get a C or D in the classes I currently have F's in, in order to pass high school and graduate and so that my college (Luther College) doesn't revoke my admission!!! AHHHH YA...stressful? YOU HAVE NO IDEA! This has become kinda like a "life or death" situation to me and not being able to graduate and go to Luther college is the painful "death" that I am desperately trying to avoid at all costs by trying to get my grades up in these last 2 weeks of school! AHHH!!!!
FRIENDS/BF-
Everything is good with my friends for the most part, except for my one really good friend (who use to be my bff) whose been mad at me for a couple of months now...it breaks my heart and tears me up inside and every time she hang out and does fun stuff that we use to do together with other friends...but I just gotta learn to suck it up I guess...I do plan on trying to talk to her or write her a letter spilling out my inner utmost thoughts and emotions about the whole debacle but just not right now its gonna have to wait till June 13th (the day I graduate) cause as of right now graduating high school is just a tad higher on my priorities list right now! And as for the bf well he's good I guess him and I are cool...we had an AMAZING time at prom so much fun!!!! I just wish he lived closer and that I could see him more....also it would help if maybe he could drive too...oh well
SUMMER VACATION-
AHHH! Summer vacation normally I'm super excited to stay busy during the summer with my school's Summer Academy Summer Musical but this summer I'm not doing the musical...and I tried out for a summer community theater show too but don't know if I'll be able to do either which may mean no theater and or being in a show for me at all this summer! Which would kill me inside I need to perform! But then there is also the issue of weather or not I'm going to finally ever get a job this summer to shut my parents up about that...and to make money for college, and if a lot of my time is going to be consumed with taking Algebra II over again for a 2nd time online thru my school....and then there is the issue of traveling and actual family vacations...apparently were going to Orlando Florida sometime in mid-july so that I can go the the Harry Potter theme park thats opening up there...but I feel like that honestly can't be the only reason were going there...also theres the issue of traveling abroad my grandpa really wants to send me and my grandma alone together to Paris, France for a week over summer vacation as a graduation gift for me....but then I also wanted to ask my dad about either going to Nashville with him to see a Taylor Swift concert, or going to NYC to see a Lady Gaga concert at Madison Square Garden, since when she is coming to Milwaukee and ON MY BIRTHDAY NO LESS!!! I'll be away at college already!!!!! GRRR!!! So I don't know whats gonna happen but I know I won't be able to go everywhere and that I'll HAVE to go to FL with my parents and brother cuz my dads paying for it and stuff...but the other fantasy trip ideas idk we'll see....cross you fingers for me! lol ;)
COLLEGE-
AHHH OMG COLLEGE! I'M GOING TO EFFING COLLEGE!!!!! Who would've thought I'd make it that far? lol just kidding just kidding though I'm not there yet! Theres still 2 weeks of high school left and i'm still failing 2 classes, one thats mandatory to graduate the other thats not but that Luther College may revoke my admission to go to school their over because its a class they like incoming freshman to already have under their belt...its Algebra II and thats why I'm already planning on signing up to RE-take it online thru summer school over the summer because I do not want to put my college education in any jeopardy whatsoever! But I seriously am freaking out about this also dad forced me to choose the June 15th class registration date for Luther, so that means assuming I pass and graduate 2 days after my high school graduation yes you heard right 2 days after my high school graduation I will be going to my future college campus for registration and orientation!!! AHHH OMG! SO EXCITING!!! but only-ONLY IF I GRADUATE FROM KM!!!! AHHHH UGHH FML Please please please weather you believe in god or a higher being or not pray for me to stay focused on my studies these next to weeks and pass so that I can go to my dream college next fall please! PRAY! HARD!
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