I've been wondering that question ever since I started liking boys in 5th or 6th grade and to be completely and 100% honestly truthful. I still don't know at age 18, with only my 2nd boyfriend EVER. (yes I know I'm lame and pathetic for only having 2 bf's by age 18 sorry I'm just not an attractive catch I guess...)
But anyways one thing I always wonder, that always bothers me and has bothered me wayyyy back in my days of being single but having lots of crushes all the way thru high school up to now where i am happily on bf number two only is what makes a good gf or not? when is a girl acting normal and when is she just acting overly paranoid and completely obsessive about her bf?
First off lets say he lives far away from you and you both can't drive for various reasons...(as in my case is) is so wrong of me to want to try to hang out with him as much as possible on the weekends and optimistically think that maybe one of these weekends he may finally be free? And that if he is magically free that he'll want to hang out with me?
And is it so wrong of me to get a little annoyed when he tends to choose the convenience of hanging out with his guy friends who live closer and can drive him places than his "causal long distance gf"? UGH
IDK maybe I am turning into one of those overly paranoid and completely-obsessed girlfriends who just wants all his attention all the time, and expects too much OR WORSE maybe I've been like that all along since 5th grade since I had my very first crush and my heartbroken for the first time....
IDK I just don't know what to think anymore all I know is that obviously for each girl and guy and for every different relationship on this vast planet of people making up and breaking up daily that for each person their definition of what they look for in a partner and expect of from a partner in a healthy 2 way relationship ifs obviously going to differ.
But is it wrong to just want to spend more time with your significant other?
And is it a bad sign when they seem to not really care to spend as much time with you back? Even when they live so far away from you?
And is it wrong of me to get so easily frustrated when plans fall through or said boy does things with his friends instead of me on friday or saturday nights while I'm at home bored doing hw or watching lifetime with my mom? :(
Anyways just a few thoughts I had anyone feel free to comment and give me your input or advice. Cuz obviously I don't know much about relationships only having had 2 boyfriends in my life so far...so any comments or thoughts (negative or positive) I think would be good for me to hear and I'd appreciate. Thanks!
Though I just realized that for that to happen now I actually need to get people to start following my blog....oh well w/e I know at least one friend who will lol ;)
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